I tried to write this week’s blog a dozen times but had no clue what to write about. This week has been a struggle for me and no i didn’t want to write about that cause then people would know that i had bad week. Then i thought what if their is someone out there going through the same things as me so i’m going to be real and be a little vulnerable.
To the girl who on the outside everything seems great but on the inside she is struggling. To the girl who has a hard time letting people in and letting anyone see the REAL her. To the girl that always thinks she can do it on her own and is so hard on herself when she fails. I’m writing this for someone like me…
I’ve learned so much in this course I’ve learned about the Master Keys, The Seven Laws of the Mind, I’ve learned how to be a better person and how to be an observer in my own life and so so much more. Since starting this incredible Journey, ive had my ups and downs, Great weeks and not so great ones which is expected when you are changing your mindset and ultimately your life. I’ve been pretty faithful with all my reads, exercises and assignments since the beginning in September. Then little by little those old habits started creeping back into my life… I missed a couple reads here and there, more than a couple sits and on those days no I didn’t talk to the girl in the glass because this girl wasn’t really happy with herself! I’ve gotten behind on a couple of assignments and missed last weeks webby and since this course is a progression i feel overwhelmed and lost at times. It’s like at some point i just started to hold myself back like i started running on auto pilot going through the motions and that is definitely not where i want to be. This week has truly been a struggle… i’ve been all in my head, overwhelmed and disappointed in myself. Its like I know what I need to do but I still made a choice not to. I even thought about quitting because wouldn’t that be easier right (so my old blueprint)!
Today as i sat down to write this blog i thought to myself …Why the heck am i holding on to this life that I don’t even want and not doing EVERYTHING… every exercise, reading, card writing and sit that could bring me to exactly who and where I want to be. I am NOT a quitter, I don’t want to create that habit in my life or teach my children that giving up is an option. Nothing amazing ever comes easy right….I may be struggling right now and may have hit a giant road block but it will pass. One thing I know for sure I am not the same person I was when this course started in September and I will not be the same person that I am right now when I come to the conclusion of this journey. In my DMP I wrote that “I live a life of purpose and I attract abundance. I have power over my emotions and I have a Do It NOW attitude. I sacrifice control and small thinking and I choose faith over Fear. I wake up everyday with Intention” that is what I am reaching for and these struggles will not stop me from reaching my future self. I am so much more than that old blueprint and I refuse to give it any power over my life. This is what I will to be!
Never let a stumble be the end of your journey 😘❤️👊🏼